be a purple veggie

hay, the rainy days have started again i feel so lazy and bummed out every time it rains..it's either i:

1. feel uber melancholic or

2. am too lazy to get up to to school

3. am afraid i might get wet on the way to school or have transpo problems...and even..

4. afraid i may get too cozied up because of the gloomy weather and fall asleep while doing something important...uhuh..

oh well, can't control the weather eh? hehehe anyway, i am again getting concious of what i am eating..i have, for months now, abstained fro mthe so called junk foods but have also managed to cheat on my DONT-DARE-DRINK-SOFTRINK-DIET because of the possibility i might get indigestion from eating too much..hahaha..it gets even challenging when there are social gatherings like the oh-so many parties happening..managed to skip drinking colas on a few occasions but...some gatherings are exceptions of course... and if ever i do eat too much food, i drink at least two or three cups of green tea to detoxify myself..well..i must say i am proud of me... now boy oh boy am i happy that some people think i am losing wieght..but of course, i am not on a diet, i am just freeing myself of junk..if you know what i mean..oh well, start eating healthy why you are young...hahahahar!! let's all leave a boho life ja! hahaha..what the hell am i saying..i need to go to the gym pala..sna magka moolah na ako...

woke up this morning to be surprised by a big commotion in our room (me and moi sister's). My sister's contact lenses broke while she was getting it out of her eye...i was the one to notice that it had already been broken...she was crying and panicking and although i was not in good terms with her, i tried to help out and calm her down...i tried to explain to her what could've possibly happened to her contact lenses and also tell her reasons why she should not worry about losing her sight...God, i was also so nervous that she just might...she is now in Healthway, seeing an opthalmologist, and i do hope she's okay...

hay, now i realized that i have to keep my eyesight perfect (20/20) so that i'd avoid using those weird eye 'apparatuses' which

1. make you look nerdy if you don't know how to style them properly..

2. would eventually cause your eyesight to go bonkers...

 

i know im not a hopless romantic but i just am so devastated by the fact that the  person which i love is 200 km awa from me...can you blame me for being so-out-of-it most of the time? they say that at this age, romantic relationships' are futile, because are 'raging hormones' control most of our ctions, but believe me, this is more than my hormones work...it's something else. and the more i wait, i admit sometimes, the more i want to believe that distance indeed is a factor. but the fact that it will be a year SOON, makes me want to wait more...after all, an impatient person like moi has survived this realtionship...and it's not easy, i admit that i usually get bogged down when he doesn't call me, and i admit i do cry but it's worth it all...when you find that guy, although you are not too sure it won't work, just try..after all, would that person enter your life without any purpose? even if the purpose is to hurt you, it is still worth it, no one loses, both of you learn, and you come out a better person..i took a risk and i am a better person...i may be too verbose now, and slurry with my ideas but i hope i get to communicate what i feel...i am happy and contented and i may shy away from your questions and not tell much about my loveescapades but believe me, i am happy, that's all that matters..wait for your turn, whether you've dated a-plenty, it doesn't matter, you'll find the right one...actually, either right one or wrong one is good..aight? )

it's the first dayof my second year in college and i am bombarded with so many thoughts so...full of hate

for my course, my classmates, just about evrything about the campus...is it me?or just the first day blues? ick..can't even imagine im ranting about this...first of all, i've promised moiself tostop ranting about this, second, it's school, for chrissakes, everyone rants about it...let me give reasons why i should hate my school:

not my first choice: it's freakin' (slang dapat pagkakasabi nyan) expensive and i think im not getting my moneys worth..yet i don't think im getting my moneys worth

people: god, the most concieted and narcissism-laiden people are in this school..you'd think we are a school of design or fashion which apparently we aren't...they spent oodles of money on new gadgets which won't even help them pass a single test, lest they use them for cheating (hahaha, bitter ka ba? hmmmfff....)

policy is soo strict..world class?uhmm....the students' taste for fashion and technology, maybe, but education?..questionable....

the location, its' uber far from where i live..full of smoke and dust..(literally, mukha na akong taong grasa by the end of the day)

now, these people who study in my school (let's call my school the r* school ) live up to what people expect/ deem them to be, snobs, conyo, whatever term which can be used to describe bimbos and angas-boys with all talk.looks no brain...maybe we deserve that notion, after all, more than 50% of R* school population consists of these kind of people...i am not one of those, however, i am certain of that..it's sad im part of this school which promises so much, but doesn't really promise anything...i can't blame these people if they are rich and want to show off, but puh-lees...spare me some time from your freak shows, give me space to breathe...

i am now accustomed to the "stuffy" encironment and i tell you, you'll get used to it too...but you'll have to look into yourself too, and i, will never e swayed by these people that i turn into semi-robots, like them..i am me, and although i am not qutie sure if i know myself that well, one thing certain is, i have my own identity...and i wouldn't trade it for any other green-tainted one...

my blood bleeds, blackish-red, i love it, it means im still human, i still wear black and oppose the outrageous fashion trends which have suddenly popped out from somewhere...

school starts again, beware...hahaha, im so full of angst..i love it, it means im still me..

 

thank you sa lahat ng bumati!! and the flower..oh my..they are BEAUTIFUL!!..especially to my mumzypoo..salamat salamat, i can't thank you enough..growing up wasn't easy at all, these past 18 years have been crazy and i must say that i couldn't have done it without you guys!!I love you all